FRUSTRATED
by Alexa Oliva
This has been the most trying year of my life. I have had thoughts of am I going to make it or do I even want to make it. When you put yourself out in front of the world to see, you put yourself in front of yourself and reflect.
And there behind my dilemma the eternal self-doubt. Am I doing the right thing, have I made the best choices for me, what can I do to make it better, is this the time where you give up, where have my friends gone, am I neglecting my current friends, am I being a good parent, daughter, wife, etc.
I wish I could find the answers and stop the self-doubt, so then I tell myself it’s just you being human. It’s so hard to think I’m just human when I’ve been running around like super women for so long. But I guess this is what aging does.
I am so ready for the next chapter of my life. Signing out frustrated, but I will not give up.
JUN